If I had you

Any form of breakup is never a good thing. I never spoke much bout our lost, our love.

And what is love, we are just a bunch of amateurs.

But when it comes, it goes with hurt. Who doesn't hurt from a breakup?

You used to say I meant the world to you, the only one for you. Someone you would love to keep. We had the best time together, we had the wildest dreams and the sweetest moments.

You said you need time for transition. We weren't mature enough to handle our differences. You weren't ready to change for me, but I know I tried my best, I compromised. I always love you more.

I'll miss the times you never fail to bring me out for supper when I'm famished in the wee hours.

I'd always remember how you rushed down when you were already homed to my place cause I called you on the phone crying because my parents got a tiff and I'm so lost. No second word, you were there trying to console me. Even though I didn't manage to leave home just to see you a second downstairs.

For a few times when I was seriously upset with some friends. You will be there to help me out. You couldnt bear to see me hurt and it angers you that someone would make me cry.

For weeks you never fail to send me home from work when I can tell that you were really sleepy.

You'd always let me choose what I want to eat and let me have whatever I want. You'd always pay for me and fetch me whenever you can.

You'd always tell me you love me and how much I mean to you. Even when I made you angry, all you'd say is "Don't think too much. You were never a burden to me". You always try your best to help me with the downs in my life though many a times your advice ain't the best, but whenever you were there, you made me feel a lot better.


You are the first guy whom I had let enter my life with such a short period of time. I felt comfortable with you, you always made me laugh, you made me feel so protected, you cared about me and I've never felt that way before.

But I didn't let that over write our differences. The time we had together wasn't short. The good times were definitely more than the bad. But it was gonna be difficult in the long run with our differences. You'd go out with your friends late at night. You priorities school and work. You'd never wanted to fit me in your life when I tried so hard to go along with yours. I had all my time for you, but not you. You are the total opposite of me. You weren't ready to love me. You claimed that you underestimated school load. You only can apologize that you can't neglect studies and work. You totally neglected how I feel.

Be it personality, interest, character, thinking, upbringing. everything. We couldn't even have anything in common that we like. From the food we eat to the things we like to do. From our habits to the way we speak.


Its amazing how we got together.
And it was an amazing time with you.

However I know that you'll never be there for me anymore.